silenced by thoughts
as my words break on those dark painted walls,
I carry you with me, you have no idea
who will this
who am I
and what will fix this crashed mind
I don’t
LIES
dreams heading off to hungary
on wednessdays I really hate waking up because I know I am going to have a hard day at school. but today I could stay in bed until 10 o’clock because I had to go to hospital for a checkup. after hospital I went for some lunch with my mom and then I went to school for a few hours, and mostly I hate french class but today I liked it. okay, no. that wasn’t true. during my choir lesson we are now doing ‘the bohemian rapsody’ and so I laughed like the entire time and so my day was like epically at his final end. I always love to travelling thoughts while I’m sitting on the bus and I couldn’t stop thinking about going back to Hungary for the summer. I love it there, and I will always do. my parents bought a house over there, (I will add a picture of the village) and since the first time being there, it felt so good just feelig free and releasing all of my daily stress and just relax. I want summer, but I want it so badly I’m looking forward to buy new bikini’s. no, that’s not true. I love winter too but only if there’s snow. and for now, I haven’t seen any of it yet, and that’s one sad song. enough for today,
much love,
TBS
stuck between words from pages
as daylight appeared, I shared love with all of my classmates, I gave them happiness because I had enough of it myself and I’d forgotten to give them a christmas present so I told myself to make it up to them sharing all goods with everyone. although I didn’t liked the way some people were acting, I just ignored them and left them for what they were. back at home I felt an excitement of joy ‘cause my clothes should’ve been arrived from the UK and I hoped that the cigarette jeanses would fit me. and with all of my strenght to stay happy I opened the bag that was filled with clothes en when I putted on those pants it was oversized so I now need to return them. hm that was a sad thing but now I have money left to buy something else. what would you buy with 50euros? that’s interesting isn’t it? yeah I would definitely by clothes with it because of the sales but if it was for living I would buy vegetables and fruit with it. hmmmm and water, lots of water. and maybe a little bread to start the day! I am going to stay happy because that’s a promise I’ve made to myself and I know that’s a difficult thing, but being happy makes life so much easier and comfortable. and that’s what I want. having a nice day and enjoying every second of it is the most important thing in life, and now I am making this way too long and I’m probably boring you so, good evening and enjoy your meal
much love,
TBS
